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Well, I talked about my struggles a while ago, but saturday was it. 4 years... flushhhhhhhhh.
I apparently forgot a simple concept:
You can't make anyone love or fall in love with you. They have to make that choice themselves, and they have to make that choice every day. The worst part is I made the choice to love and fall in love with that person... and it's REAALLLY hard to "undo" that.
She chose her job/friends/acquaintances/etc over me, told me I would have to be content with a mediocre relationship because that's all she was going to give me (who says that?)
... and I was expected to stay after knowing that.
I want something extraordinary, not something less than average.
She still didn't make a "choice." I had to choose that this was the end, ultimately...
and beyond the choice I've made, I still love the damned girl. It's horrible, really. Oh well. I'm doing a lot better though. Got great friends that are keeping me involved, which is awesome.
NOT looking forward to telling family though. I think I'm going to just skip that step... "Oh what do you mean you didn't know we split like 6 months ago? Well, that was a while ago. Let's talk about something else"